A Sad Day

“Mom what happened at that big building in Ottawa today?  Is Sharon safe?”

These are the words that Marcus (6) asked me tonight as he was going to bed.  He was, of course, referring to the shootings in Ottawa today at Parliament Hill and the National War Memorial.  I had to answer him, but what do you tell a 6 year old?  How do you explain a senseless tragedy when you can’t comprehend it yourself?

I told him there was a big memorial statue in Ottawa and there were soldiers that stood guard at it all the time to remember all the soldiers who have died for us.  They stood guard out of respect to keep the memory of all the other soldiers alive for us.  Today a bad guy with a gun came and shot one of the soldiers who were standing guard.  When the bad guy went running away all kinds of police chased him and before he had the chance to hurt anyone else, he was shot by the police and he died too.

“Why did a bad guy want to hurt a soldier?”

I told him I didn’t know why.  People always have a choice; they can do what is right or they can do what is wrong.  What this bad guy did was wrong.  Why he chose to do something wrong, I don’t know.  When people do things that are wrong, they are punished, and he was punished.

“He was punished because he shot the soldier and then the police shot him so he couldn’t shoot anybody else?”


“And Sharon?” (Our friend who lives outside of Ottawa)

She is safe.  She was at work today and is fine.  I explained to him that a lot of people, grown ups and kids, had to be put in lock down today at their places of work and at schools.

“Just like we had a lock down drill yesterday at school?”

Exactly.  You were shown yesterday what to do in an emergency and all those people in Ottawa were shown what to do, too.  They are all safe because they were in lock down and did what they were told.

“Who was the soldier that died?”

His name is Nathan.  Cpl. Nathan Cirillo.  He’s 24.  He loved dogs and he had a little boy.

“That’s sad.”

Yes, it is very sad.  This soldier wanted to protect his country and did a great job keeping us all safe.  Soldiers know there might be a time that they could get hurt, but because they love their job and their country they don’t think about that, they just think abut keeping us all safe.

“Just like Dad and Matthew and all the firefighters?  They could get hurt at a fire but they are still firefighters.”


“I hope no more bad guys hurt any soldiers.”

Me too, bud, me too.

Until next time…

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I continually reflect on what I’m thankful for throughout the year, not just on Thanksgiving Day or weekend.  However, I rarely put it in list form.  Let’s see how many I can rhyme off without taking too much of your time.

1. I am thankful for my husband, my best friend, my rock, my soul mate, my Mikey.  He has been by my side for more than half my life and has been my one constant through it all.  For better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, through good times and bad.  There’s not a lot we have’t gone through together.  I am thankful he has never turned his back on me.

2. I am thankful for my oldest son, Matthew.  He has taught me more about life than I could ever hope to teach him.  He has shown me what dedication, determination and love is really all about.  He has introduced me to a foreign world that I knew nothing about and taught me that anything is possibly, when the time is right.  He has shown me that autism doesn’t define who he is; he defines autism.  He has allowed me to dig deep within my heart to make sure the world is ready for him.  He has encouraged me to step up to the plate and advocate for his rights and encourage changes for all who need assistance.  He has shown me that he is indeed independent, even if it’s in that rebellious short of way that all teenagers struggle with.  He has taught me that it’s ok to be different, not less.

3. I am thankful for my Angel in the stars.  Emily changed my world 12 years ago.  Her short journey had life-altering effects on who I am as a person.  Again, my girl helps me help others.  Because of her I have been able to share a story that lets others know they are not alone.

4. I am thankful for my youngest son, Marcus.  Just when we thought life was going along tickety-boo, Marcus had other ideas.  He surprised us from the get-go and continues to stop us all in our tracks every day.  A real comedian with the biggest, brownest, most gorgeous eyes ever; he’s certainly made a huge impact on our family in only 6 short years.  He is my softie with a heart of gold and a stubborn streak that puts me to shame.  I look forward to sitting back and watching the good he’s going to do in this world.

5. I am thankful for my Mom and Dad.  With me since day 1 they are my biggest fans and wisest critics.  They set the wheels in motion for the person I have become.  They laid out the morals and values they felt I needed to walk this road and even though I may have bucked them a time or two they remained firm and guided me in the direction they hoped I would travel.  They cheered, they taught, they advised, they reprimanded, they laughed, they cried, they encouraged, they discouraged, they expected, they demanded, they sat back, they stepped in, they loved.  They parented.  Period.

6. I am thankful for my sister.  Even though we fought like cats and dogs in the early years we ended up being closer than close during our latter teen years.  We hung out, we shared common interests, we laughed, we cried, we were each others confidant.  We will always be each others ‘only’.  With families of our own and schedules that keep us both going nonstop we are always just a call or message away.  I can always count on her to be my words of wisdom, my reality check and the voice of honesty when I need it most.  She’s the most real person I know I am glad she’s my ‘only’.

7. I am thankful for a job I enjoy going to.  After almost 14 years I still get up each morning and enjoy going to work.  I have met some wonderful people over the years who have allowed me to share in some of their darkest moments and their brightest days.  I have been humbled to work with customers who have included me in their lives and shared much of what they have to offer with me.  With the work I do I have developed relationships with people that has extended beyond Monday – Friday, 8:30 – 4:30.  I have visited their homes and invited others into mine.  I have made many friends, some of which I have helped and others have helped me far beyond the scope of heating oil related business.

8. I am thankful for my home.  Almost two years we ago we decided it was time for change.  Change is often scary and always unpredictable.  Even though many were skeptical, 15 months after we made it official, I can honestly say that we probably made the best decision we ever could have made by relocating.  Our newly found love of country living has done more good for all of us than I could have ever imagined.

9. I am thankful for extended family members.  For cousins and their spouses that have gone from my babysitters years ago to my friends today.  Cousins that have embraced my boys and love them unconditionally.  Cousins that have welcomed my husband and included him as a ‘brother’, giving him the sense of sibling worth that he never thought he’d experience as an only child.

10. I am thankful for my closest friend and confidant.  Even though she is provinces away she is always close by.  She has taught me that two people who are very different can still be so very much alike.  She has taught me it’s ok to pull back a little bit and that quality speaks volumes over quantity.

11. I am thankful for lessons learned.  For being heartbroken, for being used, for being bullied, for being blatantly ignored, for being judged, for being lied to, for being talked about, for being laughed at, for being discarded when I was no longer useful, for being the only one excluded time and time again, for being blamed.  I am so thankful for all the lessons I learned because of the way so many people chose to treat me and my family.  I am thankful that my ability to hold my head high and live my life through my eyes will take me farther than feeding into the negativity that has followed me and will continue to follow me throughout my life.

12. I am thankful for nature and for being given a second chance to appreciate something I took advantage of for many years.

13. I am thankful that I don’t have a lot of money.  I have what I need and I appreciate what I have.  I remember where I came from and I work hard to provide an honest upbringing for my boys.  It’s not about the bottom line of the bank account.  It’s not about the ‘stuff’.  It’s not about flaunting in the face of others.  It’s about being real.  And I am thankful to say I am real.  What you see is what you get.

14. I am thankful for the confidence I have to stand up for myself and be my own person based on who I am and not how I want others to perceive me.  I am proud and pleased with who I am and continue to always make sure I am accountable to myself and my family.

15. I am thankful for my love of music and for being able to share that love with my husband.  It is because of that love that we met and it continues to be an integral part of who we are as a couple.  Music is the universal language that speaks to every heart in every circumstance.  I am equally thankful that our sons appreciate all genres of music the way we do.

16. I am thankful to those of you who take a few minutes to read my posts each time I add an entry.  I hope some of what I write about strikes a chord with you, that I have been able to open your eyes to something new and that I have put a smile on your face a time or two.  Without you reading, I wouldn’t be fueled as much as I am to write.

17. I am thankful to have written a list so lengthy.  I know I could keep going far beyond the words listed here but sometimes less is more.

18. I am thankful to have this glorious afternoon with my family.

19. I am thankful for the opportunity to give thanks.

Until next time….

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44 Life Lessons for 44 Years

Let’s see…what have I learned in the last 44 years?  Here’s a few things that come to mind, in no particular order.

1. My Mom knows a whole lot more than I gave her credit for during my younger years.

2. Anything that Mom didn’t know, Dad did.

3. I can’t get away with anything.  Mom and Dad always found out the truth, eventually.

4. I can successfully screw up Jell-o.

5. It’s only an issue if I make it an issue.

6. Someone (something) can only intimidate me if I let him/her/it.

7. The choice is mine – always – about everything.

8. I can do anything I put my mind to (except make Jell-o successfully).

9. Don’t try to win an argument with a 6 year old; specifically my 6 year old.

10. There is no such thing as a squirrel-proof bird feeder.

11. I can survive quite nicely for 5 days with no power in the midst of an ice storm.

12. My husband is a much better cook than I am.

13. My grade twelve English teacher taught me more about grammar in one year than I learned all together the eleven previous years.

14. Matthew.

15. Emily.

16. Marcus.

17. I always wanted to be a wife.  Marriage is amazing, hard, wonderful, frustrating, and very rewarding.

18. It’s never too late to return to school.

19. Mom makes the best macaroni in the world and I cannot replicate it no matter how hard I try.

20. I did replicate her cabbage rolls :)

21. Matthew continues to teach me more about life than I could ever teach him about anything.

22. Marcus is a social butterfly who will try anything.

23. When you’re picked on as a kid and your sister who is 4 years younger than you steps in and picks up for you, you’ll never realize how much that says about your relationship until many years later.

24. It was very liberating to let my hair colour grow out and wear my grey hair proudly.

25. My parents have an incredibly strong marriage that showed me so much about how to deal with ‘stuff’.

26. It’s never all about me – and it never was.

27. I can not speak French and only took it until grade 10 in school because I had to.

28. My husband knows more about music than I could ever hope to, yet he pretends to be impressed with my music knowledge at times.

29. I don’t give myself enough credit when it comes to trying new stuff, especially in the kitchen – except for Jell-o.

30. Sea Cadets was the best thing that ever happened to me.

31. I can’t, nor will I ever be able to, swim over my head.

32. I can’t float. (Although this may be more a life lesson for hubby, cuz I already knew it.)

33. The man I told I wouldn’t be caught alive on a date with told me I he would marry me one day.

34. I screw up regularly, and that’s ok. As long as I don’t stop trying, it’s all good.

35. A mistake is only a mistake if you don’t learn something from it.

36. My kids are their own people and I shouldn’t try to make them anything other than who they are.

37. I love to write, I write well and should do a lot more of it.

38. My family is quirky but I love them anyway.

39. I am quirky but my family loves me anyway.

40. I am a thinker.

41. I am much better speaking about a prepared topic than an impromptu one.

42. Crying makes me turn blotchy.

43. There is nothing more soothing than sitting at the river with a hot coffee.

44. I have a million more life lesson’s to learn.

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My Time Has Come

Ten years ago I completed a journey that I began in 1988.  I finally returned to school to complete my university degree.  It took me longer than the average bear, but I did it.  Fourteen years ago I had all intentions of returning but realized there wasn’t much sense in doing that until I at least knew how to turn on a computer (no joke!).

My adventure as a mature student began at a locally owned and operated career academy which offered the course I needed plus included a 6 week work term component.  Not only would I get the basic computer/office/administration skills I would need to make my break from retail but I would also get a placement for 6 weeks to put my newly acquired skills to the test.

Fortunately, my work term was at another locally owned business that was well established in the area and although I knew nothing about propane or oil I dove right in and learned as much as I could.

I guess I did okay as 14 years later, I’m still there :) Through the encouragement of my employer I enrolled in university in 2004 to complete my degree now that I had the basic skills necessary to keep up with the ever changing world of technology and education.  I needed 3 courses for my degree.  Yep, 3.  I opted to take 3 business courses to better my understanding of my work environment.  I took so much more out of my time in the classroom than I did in 1988.  I was ready.  I did the “real world” thing and I could now understand so much of what those courses really meant to me and where I would use them in real life.  I had a better appreciation than I had the first trip I made to university.  I’ve always loved learning but when I left high school I wasn’t ready to decide what I wanted to be when I grew up and I made decisions that took me places I wasn’t ready to be.  However, that’s all water under the bridge.

Now here I go again.  My employer is so enthusiastic about people (especially his employees) wanting to better their education that I couldn’t wait to share with him my interest in a new course being offered at the same place where I received my BTCA and started working for him 14 years ago.  This time we’re getting a little bit more specific within the scope of learning.  I need 4 courses from the university to receive a Certificate in Management.  Thankfully, the Canadian Institute of Management has partnered with Island Career Academy and I can get my CSM Certification during a timetable that is much more conducive to my needs.

So why is it that my time has come now?  Why didn’t I do this earlier?  Because I’m a Mom and my kids needed me, that’s why.  The road we have traveled with Matthew since he started school had no room on it for me to detour.  I needed to be on my game for him.  All my energy and focus had to be making sure his needs were met.  I can finally say that he is well on his way.  A year from now he will be in his senior year (that’s just too crazy to imagine let alone type).  He has walked a long and at times, very trying path but he continued to move ahead and mature in ways beyond anything I could have ever imagined 10 years ago.  And as far as Marcus, well he’s just the most easy-going, happy-go-lucky kid that I have ever come across in my life.  He’s joined Yoga at school today and all is right in his world…lol.  That’s why my time has come.

It’s going to be a busy winter!  Between working for an oil company (please don’t let this winter be as bad as last winter was!!) and going to school, it’ll be springtime before I know it.

Bring it on.

Until next time…

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Thanks to everyone for reading yesterday’s post.  For those of you who have messaged, this one’s for you ;)

Matthew ended up spending a second night camping.  It was the first thing he asked yesterday when he called me.  “Can I please, please, please, please, please stay again tonight?”   

I really had to think about it, and this is why:  there’s a very fine line between something being a success or a disaster.  The first night went great; he had a fantastic time.  Add on to that another whole day of working, not really getting a chance to chill out, the weather changing to overcast and drizzle, mood changes in general and him getting tired.  I wanted to wait to see what his mood was like later in the day, then I would decide.  If he was getting too tired or not eating right his mood could change in an instant.  I didn’t want him to spend a second night out there only to end up regretting the whole thing.  The first night was awesome and I didn’t want to chance having all the good be undone by pushing it.  It may sound ridiculous.  Unless you have traveled our road or one similar you may not understand and really there is no way for me to adequately explain it.  Suffice it to say that all the deliberation and agony that I struggled with yesterday afternoon was to make sure this all ended positively for him.  Whether he stayed for one night or ten, I really didn’t care.  All that concerned me was that such a big accomplishment ended with him having a smile on his face.  Noting else mattered.  

Before Mike went to work, Matt called again.  After Mike talked with him he felt that he was still in a good space.  He really felt Matt would be fine.  So off I went with a few things he’d need for his second night camping out.

He was so full of enthusiasm when I arrived.  He was excited, happy and thrilled to be staying.  He couldn’t get back to it quick enough.

By early this afternoon, he was ready.  He was home after a very big weekend.  As much as I wanted to bombard him with a million questions, I knew better.  He’s never been one to like being grilled.  He certainly didn’t take after his mother that way ;)  I’d have no problem wanting to share every detail of every little thing I did with anyone who cared to listen.  But I have to respect that he’s not like me in that way.  He did share a couple of stories and I suspect over the course of the next few weeks we’ll hear more as he sees fit.  But you know what, that’s ok.  As much as I’d love to hear everything he did I know as much as I need to.  The fact that he made it through two nights on his own camping with his peers tells me more than any story he could ever share.  What he’s not telling us is saying more.  I don’t need to know.  He is 17 of course, and he did just spend the entire weekend with his friends.  I need to say that again.

Our 17 year old son just spent the entire weekend camping with his friends!!!!!!

As much as he enjoyed it and as many wonderful memories as he made this weekend, we enjoyed it for him just as much.  I couldn’t be more proud of him.  What an incredible way for him to put the wraps on an awesome summer.

This is one of those topics that I never thought I’d be writing about.  While we have seen Matthew conquer many obstacles and enjoy so many successes over the last couple of years, I can honestly say that I never thought we’d get to the point that saw him spend a weekend away with his friends ~ not just yet, anyway.  He continues to prove to us that when the time is right nothing can stand in his way.

And for anyone out there reading who has a child that may take their good ol’ time doing things, take it from a Mom who knows:  never say never.

Until next time…

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…Smile Because it Happened


As sad as it is to see Labour Day weekend upon us I can’t help but smile for what this summer has given us.  Even though it has gone by at warp speed the summer of 2014 has brought memories and accomplishments that will last a lifetime.

As a family, we were able to spend our first full summer enjoying the pleasures The Hideaway has blessed us with.  Endless nights were spent down on the beach with bonfires, music and lots of canoeing as the sun set into the water’s edge.  Just as many days saw hours go by as we tended to our property, weeded gardens, took down some trees and enjoyed spending time with family and friends entertaining on our deck.

Marcus had a great time playing soccer for his first time.  He’s going to definitely be my sports guy, I think.  He counted down to Tuesday nights all summer and looked forward to his trip to the store afterwards for ice cream.  It was probably the easiest time all summer we had getting him out of the water!  I can’t believe he didn’t get water-logged by the end of it.  His swimming skills improved immensely and he grew much more comfortable as the days went by.  The highlight of his summer was a two-night camping trip with his Aunt and Uncle which I suspect may become a yearly tradition.

Perhaps the pièce de résistance of the last few months has been what it has all meant for Matthew.  As he approaches 500 hours of volunteering at The Wildlife Park his full weeks there will be coming to an end this week as school resumes.  To properly explain what this has all meant to him would be impossible using only the written word.  There is just no way to convey the magnitude of how this experience has affected him.

For the first time in his life, Matt was not on the outside looking in.  He did not have to try to fit in.  This new adventure began for him in April and this summer saw him flourish and grow in ways that make me shiver.  Yes, his love for animals and nature was satisfied a hundred times over and he was able to spend time doing what he enjoyed but it’s so much more than that.

Living with asperger’s syndrome means that social situations are difficult.  Someone can appear to be like a fish out of water.  So many of the social ‘norms’ that we take for granted and are accustomed to are regular sources of great anxiety and confusion for someone like Matt.  Making friends, engaging in appropriate group conversation, finding those with similar interests, all those dynamics that we ‘get’ and have happen without even realizing the steps involved, can be hard laborious tasks for someone who doesn’t simply ‘get it’.

Over the summer he spent every moment that we would let him at the park.  The camaraderie that he formed with the staff was almost instant.  He was included in all aspects of park life and gained so much experience in other areas that will now follow him wherever he goes.  Besides learning new skills and being introduced to tasks such as welding, construction, carpentry, machinery, bailing hay, logging and lumbering, driving the horse wagon and countless other jobs, he learned how to work with a group and be a member of a team.  He gained confidence and earned respect by working hard and diving right in.

Besides that I have to go back to the social scene.  He was included.  He took part in activities not ‘work’ related.  He enjoyed spending time with the crew down at the water, during parades in the different communities and even something as simple as driving around the country side collecting hay.  He wanted to be there.  He enjoyed himself and he wasn’t alienated.

This week was a busy one for him.  Even though he took 3 days off there were two pretty big “Firsts” for him.  Much of the staff got together one evening after the park closed for a year-end get-together.  Matt was looking forward to this for days.  They had a BBQ and a bonfire complete with guitars, singing and stories.  Upon picking him up I could feel his joy.  It was electric.  Sitting among his peers as comfortably as if he were with family I was able to witness first hand that my boy was in his element.  Even with the wolves howling in the distance he was relaxed.  He interacted with his friends and added as much to the evening as he took from it.

As I type this entry Matt is still at the park – since 9AM yesterday morning!  The annual County Fair is taking place this weekend and many of the staff camp for the weekend at the campgrounds there.  Once he expressed interest in doing this we didn’t encourage or discourage.  We kind of just waited to see as time got closer how he’d feel.  Nothing doing, he was going camping.  By himself.  Knowing full well that Mike was night shift and wouldn’t be able to run out and pick him up in the middle of the night.  He was ok with that.  He was going to stay.

And stay he did :)  Talking with him this morning was emotional for me.  He had so much happiness and joy in his voice.  Last night was incredible and even though it was a late night (and I imagine a very little sleep night), he had the time of his life.  I couldn’t help but get filled up when I was talking to him, to which he quickly replied “Mom, don’t ruin the moment!”  Hahahaha!!  So on went my game-face and I smiled wider than ever listening to him tell me some of his stories.  As much as I want to ask him a million questions, I know that would only frustrate him, so I have to let him take the lead on this.  He’s spending today there again so I dare say by the time he makes it home later he’ll be beyond pooped and more than ready to crash.

I’ve often said (and will continue to say) that it’s the little things to many that mean the world to us.  In June if you would have told me that Matthew would have camped by himself this summer I would have called you a liar.  And by himself I mean without Mike or I.  On his own with his own group.  Something like that was the furthest thing from my mind.  He’s never slept out anywhere besides at a grandparent’s house.  He was never comfortable enough.

So as much as this all says for Matthew and the amazing accomplishments he’s gained this summer it says as much if not more for those who allowed Matthew to feel this way.  The group of people he has met since he began volunteering at the park – well, there are no words to describe how I feel about them even though I don’t know them that well.  They have all given our boy something that he hasn’t had.  A feeling of belonging.  They are all very good to him, have patience with him, and have told us what a pleasure it is to have him around.  It does my heart good in so many ways and a simple “thanks” could never do the justice I want conveyed to each and every one of them.

Matthew has set goals this summer.  As much as he has loved volunteering this summer, ultimately his dream would be employment.  Maybe, just maybe this could be a stepping stone for him and someday he will be employed there.  That would be the icing on the cake to all this.  Wouldn’t it be something if someday he’d be able to make someone feel the same way he felt all summer being part of such a great team?  We’ll just have to wait and see.

So now it’s time to bring on September!  Grade 1 for Marcus and grade 11 for Matthew.  Here’s to a smooth successful school year for all.

Until next time…

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We Need to Talk About This

robin williams

My social media sites became filled last evening with news about Robin Williams’ death.  Everyone was shocked, saddened, upset and devastated that this vivacious man who made it his job to make others laugh had taken his own life.

An online group I belong to started a thread about it.  As the conversation grew I woke to a post this morning from one of the members:

Maybe this thread can lead into a discussion…if more needs to be done to help those with mental illness, what do you think should be done?

The dialogue that opened had members having the courage to talk about events in their lives that were hard for them to discuss.  It humbled me to read them.

I had some thoughts of my own that I shared in response to this group member’s question.  What do you think should be done?  

We all have to start paying more attention to those close to us – and when I say ‘close’ to us I mean those we see A LOT. Those we work with, our immediate family whom we talk with or see several times a week, best friends, people who we are in organized extra-curricular events with. We have to pay attention. When we see a change, we have to start addressing it more. We have to stop assuming that ‘there is nothing wrong’, ‘it’s not my place’, or ‘she just has to get over herself’. I’m not saying to go around psychoanalyzing everyone. But when someone you have known for a while suddenly starts to display personality traits that are not consistent with who they typically are – pay attention. We all know drama queens, that’s not what I’m talking about either. We have to be willing to be honest whether someone likes/wants to hear what we have to say or not. We have to stop worrying about upsetting people. We have to get our heads of the sand and BE the support that people need because yes, it is our business, and if it’s not, then make it because too many people are dying or hurting others because we are turning our heads too scared to get involved.

There has to be more psychiatrists/psychologists, social workers, therapists brought into the medical system (at least here) and this has to be TOP priority for our schools. 2 and 3 year waiting lists for psych-ed testing for something as ‘simple as’ learning disabilities HAS TO CHANGE. Because guess what? Something ‘as simple as’ learning disabilities could someday lead to other issues and it can open the door (if not handled properly) for mental illnesses to fester (low self esteem, depression, etc etc).

Mental illness is still taboo in our culture and society. People still feel the need to hide away and suffer silently. Does a diabetic have to feel ashamed to ask for help? Why is it someone who has mental issues feels that way? Why are they made to feel ‘less’? Is it because we continue to turn our head the other way? We have to stop making this someone else’s problem and step up to the plate. We have to make this an everyday issue – not just an issue when tragedy strikes at a school or shopping mall and when ‘someone famous’ dies because they felt that’s the only choice they had.

It’s an invisible illness. You can’t see it. There is no wheelchair, there are no outward signs. It means we have to pay attention to people. We have to stop being so wrapped up in our own worlds to take the time to notice those around us. We have to slow down, we have to try to get back to a lifestyle that wasn’t so chaotic and technically motivated.

We have to re-engage and go back to interacting with people face-to-face. We have to be more empathetic and sympathetic and not be afraid of overstepping our bounds.

We’re all quick enough to have an opinion of what someone should have done after the fact; it’s time we put a brave face on and have the courage to share those opinions before hand next time.

In a statement released last night from Mr. William’s wife she stated that she didn’t want his death to be the focus of all this. I get that, I understand her need for saying that. But what is that doing? It is pushing mental illness under the rug yet again, it is saying ‘don’t talk about it’, it is casting a dark shadow of shame over what happened. This man, no matter how successful, rich, funny or well-loved that he was was not happy. He felt that the only way to handle was to not handle. For whatever reason he reached out in July and went back to rehab to seek help. What happened in the last few weeks to take him to the point of no return? Did she, as she stated in her release, not focus on the now? Did she assume that because he was Robin Williams he could just ‘get over it’?

And yes, I think if we stopped and thought about it, we all know someone who has been affected by mental illness, so why does this continue to go on?  Why is the stigma still there?  Why do people continue to feel they need to hide and face this alone?  Because of the way our society has evolved.  Our society can’t/won’t deal with us or accept us if we are less than the best, that’s why.

How did we get to the point that we stopped taking time to appreciate the totally insignificant things in our life, or should I say the things in our life that we have made insignificant? We have to get back in touch with what’s important. A beautiful day, puffy clouds, a hummingbird fluttering overhead, a garden growing. Nature is an incredible miracle. Our world has so many undeniable miracles right at our fingertips that many times we choose to ignore because we are too busy, because we don’t take the time to see them. We need to retrain ourselves to appreciate the things in life that give us absolutely nothing but pleasure. We have to try to step back from getting ahead, and putting too much value on ‘success’.

Our kids have to learn how to be kids again – to play, to pretend, to imagine, to scrape their knees, to hurt, to be disappointed, and to yes, even fail. We have to stop handing everything to our kids just because. We have to stop enabling. We have to stop focusing on being the best, being #1, and settling for nothing less. We need to encourage our kids to be the best THEY CAN BE. There’s a difference there – a big difference. Someone is always going to be better – and that’s ok. Our kids don’t need to be going non-stop every day. We don’t have to have our kids involved in more activities than there are days of the week.  Our kids have to learn to be bored. They have to NOT have something to do all. the. time. They need down time to just be. They need to know that it’s ok to just flop on their bed in their room and look up to the ceiling and daydream or think. We don’t have to be continually doing something with/for them. We all want to give our kids the ‘best’, we all want to see them ‘succeed’, but what is the definition of those two words? My success is different than your success and the best for me may not even hold a candle to your idea of best. We have to redefine these terms and make the term applicable to the person, not try to turn the person into our definition of the term.

We have to get back to caring about people. We have to stop saying what someone ‘wants’ to hear and start saying what they ‘need’ to hear and not be afraid to hurt their feelings. And we have to be willing to listen when someone tells us what we need to hear, whether we want to hear it or not. I’m not saying to go out and tear someone apart just because. We can express opinions using tact not to belittle or chastise.

I’ll say it again because I feel it’s worth repeating…It’s way too easy to have all the answers after-the-fact. If we were all so well versed about it after-the-fact, we have to be willing to express those answers and opinions before the questions have to be asked.

Until next time…

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