Cheating myself

Yep.  Indeed I have been cheating myself, for quite a while now actually.  Why is it that my writing takes the back burner to absolutely everything else in life?  Because I let it, that’s why.  And I should be ashamed of myself.  I love to write and I get so much from writing that I shouldn’t be letting a single day go by without writing but I do.  I let months and years go by without writing and then I go on a tangent.  I write and write until I feel like I can’t write anymore.  Anyway that’s just me and the way it goes.  No matter how much I promise I am going to write regularly, I let life get in the way.  So all I will say this time is we’ll see what happens.

So where to start?

The days and years are going by at warp speed.  My family is growing up.  Matthew just turned 15 (YIKES!) and Marcus is closer to 4 than he is to 3.  Unbelievable.  Mike and I celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary this summer and I made it to my 41st year.  Wow ~ just wow!  Wasn’t I just graduating from high school?

Matthew is growing into an exceptional young man who is counting the days until he is eligible to get his driver’s license.   *gulp*  He has “his” new car…oh, sorry I mean truck all picked out already.  I just can’t bear to burst his bubble quite yet.  One never knows, we may win the big bucks and it could happen.  I won’t hold my breath but stranger things have happened somewhere on this planet, I’m sure.

Marcus is, hhmmmmm quite indescribable.  He is so much his own person it’s hilarious.   He is so independent, so matter-of-fact and very set in his ways.  It’s a little scary some days.  Now that he really is developing is own personality I can see what many parents mean when they say that no 2 kids are alike; especially siblings.  Night and day doesn’t even come close to describing the differences between Matt and Moo.

One thing we have always tried not to do is compare our boys.  Sometimes it’s hard not to.  But really, when you think about it, it’s like comparing apples and oranges.  We do wonder though.  We wonder if Marcus is advanced in many ways or if Matthew was struggling more than we realized.  It’s so hard to know.  I don’t know what “typical” is because no 2 children are “typical”.  Marcus seems so far beyond where Matthew was at the same age in some areas (mainly cognitive and fine/gross motor skills) yet Matthew was verbally so far above other children in his age group.  Needless to say comparing the two does nothing but give me a headache so I soon turn my thoughts to other ideas.  I have concluded that they are who they are regardless of what my comparisons may state.

There is one way however, that our two boys are absolutely identical.  They are kind, sensitive, caring, polite, well-mannered and respectful.  How fortunate we are to be able to say that.  They aren’t angels by any means; they are human after all and as with anyone they have their moments.  But when push comes to shove I know our boys act responsibly and respectfully.  That makes me proud.  Even Marcus at 3 years old is able to display his knowledge of morals and values ~ now if we could only get sharing down pat we’d be laughing!

Time for me to get my thoughts in order and decide where we should go from here with An Angel’s Island.

Until next time…

About angeloftheisland

Welcome to An Angel’s Island. I’m Tracey (aka angeloftheisland). I’m also Mom to 19 year old Matthew who constantly keeps me on my toes. He’s our “special” boy who shows us daily how he deals with the world of ADHD, a Nonverbal Learning Disorder and Asperger’s Syndrome. He’s my hero. Marcus is 8 and reminds me everyday that he’s in no way going to make the school years boring for his Dad and me!! I’m also wife to Mike for 25 years now. Mike is my best friend and soul-mate and he has showed me over the years, that yes – dreams do come true. Our life may not be the most exciting but there’s always something going on. Welcome to our Happy Place, newly renamed Hilliard's Happy Hideaway. I hope you enjoy what I’ve shared about our family.
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